Sparks fly - Taylor Swift

It really thrills me.
And they say that “Sparks Fly” music video release date: August 10, 2011. 08.10.2011. 0+8+1+0+2+0+1+1= 13.

Ps,her favorite number is 13.

gyr

Holiday life

   I thought about changing my background (the one with my dog in it) during her one-year-anniversary,by which,I mean,a year after her death.But then I would like to change it now,something like to show that I am okay now.Not that I have forgotten about her,sometimes the memory of her can still bring back pain,but I figure out I shouldn't act this way.It's like I'm making my way up a hill,slowly...

   I don't actually know what I'm thinking.Just read a book called 'The Lace Reader',pretty much a strange book,and I am now having strange thoughts as a result of reading strange book.Actually I have a lot of thoughts,because I finished reading a novel in just one day.I just can't stop reading,and sleeping,when I am not reading.And then I ended up having weird dream,one of the result you may get when being overwhelmed by words.
   I think a lot too,actually,and then I have a lot of things on my mind.Some of them are brilliant but I'm too lazy to write it down.This explained why my journal is laying at the same spot where I left it,untouched.It's not a good thing to get lazy,and my mum is nagging at me (because my books are scrambled all over the floor) .
   Nah,I think I should work on all the things I imagined myself doing when exam is not over.Something like writing an essay,learn French(oh god I love French,but I don't know where to start,tell me how I learnt Mandarin and English when I was a kid),read as much novels as I can(am doing it now),exercise,etc.

   Shit,I am hungry now.

gyr

Raining

Standing in front of the window,I suck in the wind.So cold yet so refreshing...
I really like it when it rains,no,more than like,I LOVE it.
Makes me feel like I'm in the country I would like myself to be in instead of Malaysia.Too much for day-dreaming huh?

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Fine.I'm okay with it.So much okay.

So,I am now having people ignoring me,people beating me in every aspect,people look down on me, people finds me dull and many more.I don't know why,but things around me are really getting worse than it had been.Bad news followed by another,I can't figure out why.

Is it time that all the bad things I did in the past has come back to haunt me,making me pay for what I had done?(duh,now I sounds like some devil who had killed for money or fame or something like that.Trust me,it's not that serious,but still...).Now thinking back,I was really a bad person.I pour hot water at stray cats(of course they ran away before the water splashed on them),I cheated during exam(back when I was in primary school,standard one),I brought a cat home from school when I was in primary school and hid it somewhere around my house(when being asked by my mother,I told her I don't know how the cat can come in and make my mother assumed that some nasty neighbour had put the cat in our house).There's so many bad things that I had done and I can list them out on hundreds sheets of paper.

Whether it is time for me to pay for what I had done or not,I'm fine with it.Continue laughing at me because you won while I curl up in a corner,licking my wounds...
and then I will be back!

gyr

I'll prove it

Not so well in spontaneous alteration? How do I know? I only went on the stage twice and you never told me.
OK,whatever(every time I say 'whatever' when I'm frustrated,I remember what Nicolas Sparks said in 'the last song'------>'whatever is just another way of saying *******',this is funny,but I don't meant that).

Yes,they are good,but I am not bad either,but then you chose them and I have nothing to say ,it is you to choose ,fair enough(not so).
I am not in rage,just a tad bit disappointed..I do respect you,of course ,because you're the teacher ,even though I think you're a little bit more on her side.It's okay,I don't mean anything here,just writing out my stupid little thoughts.What I want to say is,someday I am going to prove that I am worthy ,that you have made the wrong decision

     

Lastly,'buck up' to myself ,loser is the best because they always succeed in the end... 

Ps,ks ng you happen to see this(which I don't think you will),I'll say,gambateh to you too.You have very fine voice.=)

    and thanks to Ah Joy for supporting me whenever I'm down ,and I'm okay now ,guess that I'm not that used to failure.XD

gyr

廉价出售

上妆、眼影、假睫毛
加上整大瓶的香水
摇摆着身体
随时抛出个妩媚的眼神
呵         “艳”压群“芳”
吸引了苍蝇往身上黏
仔细，非常仔细地
挑出鲁莽撞上的蜜蜂
伸到别人鼻子下炫耀

gyr

The story of us-Taylor Swift

What can I say?
Watch it for yourself ,it won't let you down,Taylor always won't let you down.

Tags: Taylor Swift, Music, More Music Videos

Mean-Taylor Swift

明天又开学了

原来两星期的假期可以这么快就过去的
这两星期里，也不可以说有做了什么的
其实
是什么都没做到啦，哈哈
没温习、没读书、没收拾书本
就只是吃、喝、睡，然后再看小说
现在想想，我的体重应该也增加不少了

可是
看似被我浪费了的假期
却让我在“吃、喝、睡，然后再看小说”的生活作息中找到了莫名的满足感
是的
我要说
这个假期，我过得很满足

旅行那种事对喜欢到处乱跑的我来说固然重要
不过要旅行就要去外国嘛
外国的月亮比较圆（尤其洋人国家，wakakakaka)
又不是咬着金汤匙长大的
我看我还是等到大学后吧
（可悲）
旅行～ 旅行～ 旅行！

好了好了
我要做功课了

gyr

I can't stand my English

Really I can't.Even though it has improved a lot and even though it's better Jay the hooligan(opps) Chou's English.

gyr

Exam.3rd day.

You see,it was so funny because I finished my BM paper yesterday morning but I still went to my BM tuition in the afternoon.
And then it turns out...
I found myself ALONE with a Malay guy who is going to sit for SPM July paper,no other people there,not even students from other schools who have already finished their exam,and my BM tuition teacher continue teaching despite the fact that there's only two students there(to tell the truth,there's only one,the other one,the malay guy,he graduated last year).
Hmm,I think I like this teacher.

Well I think now half of me is dying.
For me,I did my history test badly.All the thing I've read is ,sadly,forgotten.I didn't leave any blank space in my history paper of course,but still,it was no good for me.
As for the mandarin essay paper,lucky for me because at least I have something to write and finish writing in the last five minutes(phew).Believe me,essay paper is all depends on luck,sometimes you really just can't think of anything to write,I experienced that once( during PMR. Fortunately I still got an A for mandarin).My mind went blank at that time,no any story in my mind,it was so dreadful...
I know we can choose 1 essay to write from 5 questions,but I still prefer to write story,it's hard to change something once it had become your habit.

Till holidays,5 more days to go~~

gyr

Hmm,so what's wrong?

WHAT'S WRONG?

Well,I don't even know.You see,I'm online-ing even though  I have exam tomorrow
and next Monday
and Tuesday
and Wednesday
and Thursday
and Friday
And WOW,I'm still going to my tuition at 5.00pm.

My History textbook in lying on my lap,weeping.(I guess it must be,since I didn't read through it too much.)
Duh.
Seriously,I'm so scared of my Mandarin exam(essay writing),what should I write?What if I don't know what to write?

NOW GO BACK TO STUDY

gyr

人做事通常都不会单纯地只有一个动机

请不要否认。我说的都属实。
发觉很多人做事都不是单纯地只有一个动机。

讲个故事。有一个和我同岁的堂妹，我叫她苍蝇，也不算是恶意的啦，因为她的名字听起来很像苍蝇。我和她从小就在比。小学时我和她班上第一名，但她班只有二十多个人，我的班有四十多个人。后来我们还比讲故事比赛的成绩、演讲比赛（噢，其实她没参演讲），总之什么都拿来比。不是我很喜欢比，只是她的父母每次拿她来跟我比而已。
就像拿了PMR成绩的另两天，我出席马六甲堂哥的婚礼。爸爸和她的爸爸（我的姑丈）聊天。姑丈假装不经意地提起PMR，问爸爸我的成绩怎样？他知道我和苍蝇一样拿了8A后，就说
什么她女儿拿了8A不是很开心，因为全校八十多个8A里，全级一百多名的人也拿8A , 和拿全级五名以内（真的?）的苍蝇的成绩一样。苍蝇没有了可以骄傲的理由，她不能一个人站在台上接受别人的赞美，她的荣誉都和别人平分了，所以她不开心。
  然后姑丈就说不过没关系，等到SPM时就可以看得出谁才是真正厉害的了。

我那时在想，怎么可以那么自私？百多名的得了全A一定有他自己的努力嘛。
可是后来我才知道，其实当姑丈说百多名的人时，他在说的是我，只是迟钝的我那时没有察觉他话下的剑而已......

嗯，其实那是开场白，我要讲的现在才开始而已。

我今天和柔茵在班上说回以前做过的傻事，说到Joy的头发曾被形容成很“胖”时疯狂地笑了起来，欲罢却不能止。后来那个“他喜欢的她”看到我们笑得那么疯，很有兴趣地坐过来，说要听我们在说什么。其实那个弄得我们狂笑的事情对她是起不起“笑”用的，因为她小学时和我们不同校嘛。我向她讲述那个很好笑的事，却突然觉得无趣，当然我也感觉到她也有同感。
  故事说完后，她说了句“都不好笑的”就走了。当然我没有怪她，因为那个故事没有牵涉到她，而且她和Joy也不是很熟，当然不觉得好笑。令我惊讶的是，我竟然在她走了后，转身向那个喜欢她的“他”说：“她是特地来看你的。”
我在想，
我几时变得那么聪明了，
竟然能知道一个人做某事其他的目的......


gyr

哈哈，马来文辩论......

今天比了马来文辩论。发现之前的担心到了上场的最后一分钟都是累赘的，再担心都还得上场，所以还是放轻松吧......噢，是啦，今天刚巧很“幸运”地抽签抽到了我准备的那方。
然后，一小时的讨论时间后，我们就开始比赛。
其实也不知该怎么形容，比赛时大脑也想不了这么多了。就是要反驳要反驳。
也多亏朋友很好，想了一大堆可以反驳的例子。

然后再转眼，比赛就结束了。
看着三位马来（我说呀，这是不公平的。要么就请华人、印度人、马来人裁判各一位，赛绩才会公平）在 bilik mesyuarat 后方讨论赛果，姓许的预测说我们赢的机会其实很渺茫，马来人么！
突然觉得很感慨，参加有很多马来人的比赛，华人都是弱势的。就像六年级参加的sajak比赛，我去到一所马来小学，发现到周群竟都是马来人，而我就是唯一的华人！然后我就知道自己是不会得奖的了（是啊，连安慰奖也休想），不出我所料。
老实说我不是很享受被马来人包围的感觉......当然我也没有讨厌全部的马来人，只是......

许久，身为主持的培柔（培柔啊，其实做华文辩论的主持比较好，因为看的是讲华文的，不是马来文，而且帅哥也比较多。）从裁判手中拿了成绩。而且还说错成绩 ，害我白开心了一下。=（（培柔我不是在怪你啦）。另一间马来校赢了，最佳辩员是马来人二辩（女的）。
对方二辩是很厉害，可是好像有一点小气。可能是我之前的话太针对她，当我们在紫童的建议下去和他们握手时，对方二辩竟然在和我握手前犹豫了一下！什么跟什么嘛。
后来我们就在bilik mesyuarat后面吃老师准备的食物（食物！）。

回班后，柔茵问我，是不是突然觉得很空虚，奇怪怎么好像没事做了似的？对咯对咯。参华文辩论的柔茵说当初败了时也有这种感觉。
这么多天的努力和忙碌（还有没做功课）换来了失败（失败原因不详），感觉空空的。
原来，忙，也是一种幸福！
朋友，输了没关系啦，虽然你们有些人还未能一展辩才。不过这是马来西亚啦，马来人口多的国家啦......


gyr

Went to SMK Taman Tasik to watch debate...

Ps,SMK Taman Tasik is very very near to my house=)

OK,we would be in the competition today if the school which is going to debate with us didn't suddenly pulled out. So, my BM teacher brought us to SMK Taman Tasik to watch the debate between SMK TT and SABK SUBBANIAH .
Supposedly,the debate starts on 9.00am, but we wait wait wait until 9.35am only they started the debate...
One of our school teacher's son is in the SMK TT debate team.And may I say,he is great in debate!
Good,now let's pray that even if we win in the next competition(30 April),we won't meet them(is it possible?).I mean,he is so great that makes me really worry(and scared).
One thing that may be a good news,we won't meet them in short term...

The debate ended at11.10am,Pn.Yong brought us to Prima for lunch(she's so good^^).Me and AhJoy both agreed that it was kind of unbelievable.Because,it was school hours,yet we were eating,in Prima!When the food is served,PnYong paid for us(again,she is so good) and we went back to school after that.


gyr

我做主持！Yea,love it!

今年，做了2011年度校际华语辩论赛的主持人之一。（其实也没什么的，应该是因为有参校外演讲比赛的背景吧）
之前柔茵一直告诉我说做主持人是很爽的事情。
还在质疑着她言论的我 星期一主持了一场比赛后，立刻心服口服。

主持辩论赛是绝佳的经历！灰沉沉的假期也因而有了亮点。
从没想过主持两场辩论也是这么好玩的，但很快就发觉自己错了。
还认识了新朋友。
不过星期五那天出了点麻烦，结果带着轻微的罪恶感回家。
Joy的姐姐很可爱（超级啊）,说自己犯了花痴，但对我来说是很可爱的花痴。而且她“口味”不错，都是很会辩论的嘛......


其实我也不知道该说什么。是表达能力变差了的关系，还是因为键盘比不上笔，所以总觉得表达不了心情。
总之，我很享受当辩论比赛的主持人，记住这点就可以了！

这三张是培卿打印给我们的，有些位子留着好让我们能填上辩手们的名（我的字迹，哈哈）。

这是老师给我们的，只是后来培卿自己打了一份（上面的三个）。

星洲日报（大霹雳）15.3.2011

gyr

不同的要求

今天越野赛跑，原本以为自己会拿十名以内的，结果令自己大所失望。
中一时得第 8,
中二第 4 ， 
中三第 10。（跑错一小段的路）


当你平时都拿十名以内,今年却特别地差。怎样？失望？

今年每次有人问我
——你第几？
——18......(自愧不如、小小声地说）
——哇，你怎样跑的？
我心里嘀咕 “是咯，都不知自己怎么跑的，竟然这么烂...”

但我说自己跑得很差，他们却苦口婆心地告诉我跑得第18 名已经很厉害了，不要要求太高。


听了突然无语，不同的人不同要求？

♥gyr

busy ea?

Yes,I AM VERY BUSY.
very very busy...

♥gyr

钢琴

刚进门，就看见比平时还亮的那家，还有阵阵的钢琴声传出。进了门，向阿嬤打了个招呼。
看见弹钢琴的人—— 手指在钢琴键上轻轻弹着，串串动听乐符飘出来。
她很陶醉，弹钢琴的同时脚也在轻轻摇着。找了位子坐下后，静静地听着钢琴声。

乐符飘进耳里直达我心，在回荡......

那一刻，多么希望自己也是会钢琴的人！

于是，思绪万千，在琴声陪伴中写下了这篇文章。

♥gyr

Stop!No entry for homework!

Know what I see in my mind,when the teacher said 'so,your homework is...'?
I see teachers with a very evil smile on their face (ohmy,I can even hear their evil laugh 'HE-HE-HE'),and the teacher are holding a bomb,ready to throw at me.'Booooom...',here they go,but they didn't throw at me,they throw their bombs to a mountain called 'homework' so that I'm buried alive by homeworkssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
I am so dead.

Why?Why our teachers like to give homework?
We got tons of everyday,and may I say,I need one year to complete those homeworksssssss we got for A DAY.
Okay,it's just a exaggeration.But still,This is so suck.

Duhh,so many homeworks waiting.What I hate the most?Karangan.
=(

♥gyr

Back to December-Taylor swift is out now!!!!

Should have put this days before,but I had no time.So I'm putting it now,rather late i might say...

I swear!This is worth-watching(because it's Taylor's!!).

And this is the MV I love most
(highly recommended)

♥gyr

feel like I had been in a daze since school reopen

Really,I don't know what am I doing,the only thing i know is,I'm almost buried alive by tons and tons of homework.Scary?That's the truth.
Not that I can't finished my home work,but by the time I finished them ,it's already 1a.m.And I'm like 'this is so shit,why these things happen?'
I don't know,I really don't know,maybe I really have problem managing my time.Yea,maybe that's the truth.
The other thing is,not that I don't understand what's the teachers were teachings, hell,of course I understand.
But I really hate homework!!

And now I'm racking brain to write a novel/essay/poem for the competition...for some unknown reason I feel stress and at the same time , laziness is engulfing me I think.
I'm trying kinda hard to improve my Mandarin.Do I need to improve my Mandarin?I do!Once upon a time my Mandarin was counted as really good,but now,although my Mandarin level hadn't slack(I think so),it din't improve either!People are improving their Mandarin,but me?I've done NOTHING!

I desperately need a chance to prove to myself(and everyone else) that I'm still kinda good in writing.That's why I regard the whole essay competition thing as important,and treats it with my utmost attention.And now I'm stress to the breaking point!
(at least I'm handling it well,I think...)

And,of course I'm trying to improve in English(not BM ,will only study BM for EXAM)).A fact that pleased me,at least my English is improving,Well,that's because my English is too damn poor before.  V.V.

I'm going to fight against all the tiredness and laziness and whatever,fight!For my future!


I don't know what I'm writing,it's your bad for health to read this.


♥gyr

Annoying 'big' student.(!)

Trust me,I'm already kind enough by calling her 'annoying'.Because...she is a lot worse than JUST annoying.
And the reason I called her big is because,
1.She is not small anymore.
2.She is ENORMOUS !(Opps ,I mean fat).

Oh,forgot to introduce her.She is my mother's student and she used to came to our house everyday(like a paparazzi) but I don't really like her cause she is so rude.One day,she quarrel with my mom.Or to be more correct, she yell at my mom and all my mother do was only decided not to take the present she gave her and she went MAD.Don't ask me why,she is so moody(ohmygod maybe she has mental problem).And then she send lots of message to my mom,something like 'Dari hari ini kamu bukan cikgu saya lagi' (of course she's using BM because her BI is so poor) and the others I forgot already.I was sooo angry back then,imagine people yelling and saying bad things to your mom,you'll be mad as me.I remember saying something like 'I feel like kicking her butt'(must be a lot easier to kick since she got so many fat),but I didn't do it anyway,I choose to endure her.

And I thought it was the end.
But,apparently it was NOT.
My mom's colleague told her that someone is saying bad thing about her on FB.We went and check,and it was HER,using my mom's name to say words like 'cb','sh','lc'.

She really did  reach the height of truculence,didn't she?

I was really really angry,I can feel rage building inside me,ready to erupt.
I want to go to her page and scold her(in English because her English is not good.Maybe she will not understand what I'm saying but still,that sure will feel good).Sadly,I didn't had chance to online that time.After a few days,when i got chance to online ,I'm already calm down(but I'm still angry),that time I choose not think about it(because thinking about ti makes me angry) .Why not?This kind of people will pay for what they had done,sooner or later ,even though I'm not the one who make her gets what she deserve.

Still,she's not finish yet.
She keeps calling to my house!!
Well,even though she chose to speak in English,I can still recognize her  bitchy bitchy kind of voice. She didn't say her name out so I decided to play along.
When I pick up the phone ,she stammers 'emm...arr...ee...I want to...ah...may...I...speak to XXX (no please)?And I'm like 'WRONG NUMBER.'and I hang up.
The other time,when I pick up the phone she stammers again(because her English is very poor,remember?)
'emm...eh...ooo...'
and I pretend that there's something wrong with the line (of cousre I'm using English,don't ask stupid question) 'HELLO?(and she's like 'har?')...Hello??(harrr?may I speak to...)...HELLO?!!(I interrupt her)...I don't know who is this,this idiot didn't say anything(I said to my sis)!!'
and I hang up the phone.

OH MY GOD IT FEELS SO GOOD TO DO THIS.

The reason I wrote this blog is,she is really getting off limit and I can't stand her now.Count me as KIND cause I didn't go and fake an account to say shit things about her.

Quote my sister ' A PIG WITH A WIG IS STILL A PIG'.
猪即使是戴了假发，还是一只猪。
(nice saying,sis)

♥gyr

A whole new year,again...

It's the first day of my Form4 life.(and it's boring)
Spend almost the whole day siting on the floor(in the hall) .I sat there for,like,3 hours(is it this long?) and my feet were numb and I couldn't really stand upright and I seem to be limping...
That feeling is very very very not nice if you ask me.

We gonna spend another day doing the same thing,siting in the hall,listening to lots of talk.I have no comment for it,the talks I mean. I really hate siting on the floor!Thanks god it's ONLY two days.

And the teachers are saying there's a very very very big gap between Form3 and Form4,so we gonna work real hard,4 hours studying,not include tuition and time at school.(I doubt I can do that)