剖白

我很害怕独自面对。

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They don't understand...

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突然想到书

突然发现这两年都在看英文书耶，中一时对华文书的热忱好像，嗯，都蒸发了。是吗？
好像又不是，应该是要求比较严格了吧，有人说（其实是自己说）刚学会看书是什么都看，久了反而精挑细选起来。音乐也是一样，中二时刚听英文歌，来者不拒，现在看到歌词不美的有提到性关系的提到毒品的乱乱用双关词的统统拒绝听。看华文看久了，突然不想看那些自己觉得幼稚的书，呵谢谢我红蜻蜓没兴趣。看时觉得很爽的书有很多，但是看完了还很喜欢的现在就只想到三毛而已，虽然她后期的作品因荷西的死而变得灰色一片，甚至有时不能接受三毛的思想，但终归还是喜欢看她的书呢。
现在比较常看的华文读物是类似《读者》的杂志。好吧说到底其实就是3本《读者》而已，向老师借的，当初想借多点却又不好意思一下子借那么多，结果一下子就看完，又闷了，有点自讨没趣的感觉。也许是时候去图书馆借书了。华文也好英文也好，在像这样难得的假期，我可是来者不拒的唷！

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Thoughts (1)

I know I shouldn't be saying this but for this moment I can take it no more. And yes, I know it's kind of my fault to linger on Facebook for too long, and so I saw those things, things that sometimes got me frustrated, and yeah, confused too. You see, I just don't understand, what's with all those self-portraits. OK so that's nothing wrong with self-portrait. It's just that those girls(and boys even, blimey!) said something like 'I'm here in Penang' but put a picture of themselves acting cute instead. What does THAT has do do with arriving in Penang? Seriously...I just don't get it. When lots of people doing it, it just get kinda weird.
Perhaps I really should avoid looking at those self-portraits with someone trying to act cute by pouting or whatsoever in it lest I judge them again, and it's wrong to judge people...perhaps...
Emm I mean no offence, just wanted to let go of the emotion boiling inside, sometimes I really wonder about people nowadays and internet and their growing egoism.

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Rise of The Guardians

Watched it with my family yesterday, at the cinema of course. The plot is interesting enough, I think I'll give it 5/5 star.

Conclusion:
1) Jack Frost is adorable! (now I know why everybody, emm ok, girls mostly, likes Jack Frost so   much)
2) Santa is a Russian, according to the film.(sometimes Russian accent sounds like Indian's accent to my not-so-sensitive-ears)
3) Easter Bunny is cute when he's small.(so fluffy!)
4) Sandman can't talk.
5) Tooth Fairy is part hummingbird part human, according to the film, again.

The movie is cute and amusing, one can't help but fall for it！

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Less Meat, More vegetables

We all should do it, eat more vegetables and less meat.

1) It's one of the ways to safe the Earth, according to what I'm told, animal's fart release harmful gases (don't ask me what gas it is I have no interest in it so of course I don't remember) that will raise the temperature of Earth if released in large amount (ie by many animal). So with the demand for meat becoming less, it will help preserve the environment as less animal is being raise for food purpose.

2) Imagine an animal that was alive a minute ago and then killed, just because you enjoy eating them, do you seriously still want to eat meat? Do you still have the appetite?
It disgusted me to see people on some Taiwanese travelling tv program who only think of food when they see animal (who are still alive, mind you). Such glutton! Only line that escape from their mouth is : 'This can be eaten.' And I was like eww, how do you still have the heart to think of eating them when they are so cute and alive, or having no problem in eating them albeit seeing them still alive minutes before. Seriously, some people today...

I'm working hard on being a vegetarian, currently failed because I can't resist nuggets, sausages, and burger, that's why I called myself a half-vegetarian. But at least I don't stare at dogs and tortoise and think of how yummy they'll be if being cooked the right way.

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SPM过后

考完了SPM，感觉完成了大工程似，这样说其实不好，可是暂时就是这样......
SPM后，对任何人来说都是一样的吧，先是暂时性的放松，接着就是冲刺，再冲刺。应该就是这样，每一个上了大学的都是这样说的。
所以我现在就尽能力地享受那个暂时性的放松，看多多故事书，哈！（讲得好像已经放假很久了酱，其实今天才是放假的第二天）。这次好像不太能去哪里玩，算了。还有点难以置信我已经不用考试了，如果不是因为我考试时早已沉浸在放假的情绪中，就是我放假了还不能从考试的情绪中解脱，二选一我也不知道那一个比较对。@@

话说考华文那天还真有点吓到了，试卷二很多五分题，弄得我不知道该怎么答胡乱写，有那么多东西答吗？竟然还问起文章的中心思想啊主旨啊，华文真的比英文和马来文难，于是我又再胡写一通。

作文呢，其实之前已经准备好几个大纲打算塞进适合的题目，准备的还蛮多，谁知翻开考卷（其实我是从考卷的后面看了题目先的）竟发现自己瞪着

1）回家         2）一张奖状

顿时听到锵锵锵的声音，碎了，我的算盘破了啊啊啊，我的思念呢雨树呢奉献呢幸福呢友谊呢年轻人的生活呢？回家？怎么回家呀？没办法，每次考试我都是答第一和第二题的，第三第四的说明文和议论文我动都不想动，第五题是狗急跳墙用的但是从没用过，于是我选了第二题，用自己以前比赛的经验添油加醋搞定了，应该还可以吧，不想再想了。

昨天考完试一小时后就去槟城听海涛法师弘法，刚回来。

在看一本奇怪的英文书，好像曾经在很久以前很红过。

放假，大概就会是学车运动看书打工看电影还有最重要的吃饱睡，就这么简单。
应该把握时间认真学习法语才好。Oui!

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天哪，请让星期一来得快点吧！！

       考SPM前，一直很驼鸟心态地希望11月5日永远不要到来。

当然该来的终究还是来了，考试的日子还真痛苦，睡觉前还会禁不住担心，怕开了考卷是自己没太注意的课题，或者到时脑袋一片空白怎么办。考了10科，每天都忐忑不安，考试还是很须要运气的啊。（感叹）唉。仔细数数，现在已经是放假的第三个星期了我还没考完，等我考完试弟妹的假期也该完了，好像有点可悲。根本就没有过了三个星期的感觉，被考试折磨得只想到下一个科目的考试日期，时间观念统统消失了。之前一直不敢奢想考试后的计划，嘿，考试考砸了的话哪还会有闲情享受假期。现在只剩华文，读书时会突然发起白日梦，思绪飘啊浮啊，慌忙地把它捉回来，告诫自己要专心要专心。一偷懒就对不住自己的良心，于是我就把良心塞到一角然后倒头大睡。这种读书态度还真会害死我。
想好好地考这场华文发挥自己最好的水平，能否？
最近因考试的关系有一段时间没接触华文了，会不会当场脑袋当机只想到英语句子？
华文有没有退步了？
没灵感写作怎么办哪？
（唉无止尽的担心）
星期一请快点来吧终止这些折磨吧

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离别在即

今天是上课的最后一天，没去学校。最近都想到很多离别的事，对中五学生来说是正常的。
我的中学生涯并不是十分充实，但至少我遇到了几个值得相惜的朋友，现在不知道以后我们的友谊会如何，想起来有一点伤感呵......
萍聚这首歌从小学就会唱了，今天才真正去看歌词，很有感触

“ 别管以后将如何结束

 至少我们曾经相聚过

 不必费心地彼此约束

 只要我们曾经拥有过

 更不需要言语的承诺

 对你我来讲已经足够

 人的一生有许多回忆

   只愿你的追忆有个我 ”

我不是这么潇洒的人，如果要我挥一挥衣袖，只会掉下很多泪水。

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No secret spite

When someone is wronged,

He must put aside all resentment and say;
My mind shall not be disturbed.
No angry words shall escape my lips
I will remain kind and friendly
With loving thoughts and no secret spite.
 (A Buddhist prayer )

Came across this thing in a building belong to SBS, where the banthes come down from SBS and go there sometimes.
Most of the time, people say "it's okay" but you can still sense that that person is angry at you. When you're hurt, how hard it is to harbour no grudge towards someone!
Chill, forget about it, it's okay. Like, really okay.=)

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Small shrimps alert!

I was having Curry Mee as breakfast today, and I could not help help picking out those small shrimps in the curry, very patiently.
Still, however patient I am, I was still irritated, there's just so many small shrimps. I mean, I don't get why us Chinese like small shrimps so much. Small shrimps in everything we cook, noddles, rice dumpling, fried rice, etc. Why?
To me, having small shrimps in your curry mee is like having them swimming in there, occasionally peeking out. Yup, PEEKING, because their eyes are so black it's hard not to notice them in your curry, sometimes I see many pairs of eyes instead of small shrimps, it's horrible. Yucks, must not let my imagination run wild.

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5Sc1 Pilihan Raya ke-1

Had our first and  the last election yesterday.
The funny thing is, what we (most of the class al least) were most interested in are who's the handsomest and prettiest. Oh and, the best couple.

Since I have mentioned about it, I'll just announce the 'winners'.
There's two boys who were chosen as the handsomest, funny, but this is how it worked. The chosen ones are Ivan and Wooi Keong.
Ivan always struck me as cute actually, partly because of his height, but if you consider seriously about it, yeah, I guess he really is good-looking. I always think that he can be a stunner if he's taller, but judging by the votes he got, he already is one. He's a nice guy I think, we don't talk much because he doesn't talk much(to girls anyway) and I'm not that kind of girl who goes around talking to every boy in my class, so...
Wooi Keong is the one who has both the look and the brain, the one who still managed to get good results in exam despite being in a relationship, the one who was also given the title 'the handsomest' back when we were in F2.
There's also people who didn't get chosen as 'the handsomest' and accused others as blind for not voting him. He was just kidding (and being narcissistic) and I found it amusing.

And the prettiest went to Ye Wei and Hui Yee. Also expected.
Ye Wei was crowned 'the Beauty' since kindergarten, according to my friend. I'm not really close with her but from my interaction with her I know she's modest, she never really yelled.
Hui Yee and I are quite close and everybody thinks she's beautiful. Like Wooi Keong, she also has both the look and the brain. She's kind-hearted and always considerate.
Both of them attracted boys, who sometimes like to go to their place and say random something just to irk them,Of course, they have admirersssssss.

The best couples went to, well, the best couples, all from our class. It's better not to talk about them here because they might not like it. They are actually not real couples, but at least one in the two of them has feeling for the other, that's how the gossips start. Teasing them is 5Sc1's favorite pastime.

I wonder, why can't it be 'the most kind-hearted' that we are most interested in? In fact, it took us some time to think whether there's anyone suitable for the title. In the end, I voted for my best friend, because she really deserves it. Some didn't have any idea and simply wrote whoever's name that came up in their mind. It's kind of pathetic.
So I wonder again, does look matters that much? Not too much to me actually, but I still can't help falling for Ponsi's look and being over-enthusiastic about it. Not to mention those girls who yelp whenever they see actually-not-too-good-looking-but-to-them-they-are guys.

I'm not particularly satisfied with the choices given, truth to be said. There was 'the most talkative', 'the most hamsap'(=.=) and some slightly negative things, but no 'the most hard-working', 'the most helpful', 'most talented' or positive things like that. Even if they did put good things like that, we would probably have to rack our brain to come up with some suitable candidates. Why? Because we are less interested in that?

Well these are puzzles to be solved, and most probably cannot be solved. So let's not torture my poor little brain now...
Case closed.

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Desperation

When you sensed your friend drifting away, friendship fading
When your friend is sinking lower and lower, and you can't seem to pull him up
When your parents don't seem to understand you, everything you say, everything you do, misinterpreted
When you did something wrong and can't turn back the clock
When you desperately tried to impress someone and failed
When you realised that after this few years there won't be much time for you and your siblings to be together
Desperate because it brings along frustration, indignation, confusion, self-pity
and you HATE it

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时间

端午节到了
过了
中秋节到了
也过了
冬至来了
SPM 就过了
不知道该开心还是伤感才好

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悲剧

似飞蛾
你一头栽进火里
奋不顾身
疯狂地   燃烧

其实你只是火堆里的一点灰烬
焚烧爆炸的那一刻
还在编织美丽的梦

谁来告诉你
火的妖艳，你不适合？

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A brief introduction to my blog's background image

I don't usually write about my Blog's background picture, because there's nothing really special about them. My last one was a picture of the kind of place I would like to live in, and before that was a picture of my dog, and before that? No I can't remember.

So, I changed my blog's background to a picture of a famous castle in France, the Château de Chambord (Chambord Castle). I was considering about Neuschwanstein Castle at first, this castle is so breathtaking that I think it's the most beautiful castle in the world, but then I picked Chambord Castle, because of da Vinci and King François I.

They say part of Chambord Castle was designed by Leonardo da Vinci, which would be the chimneys that look like little towers. According to the book I read (borrowed from our school library), the castle consist of 440 rooms and 365 chimneys (or more)!

Also, one of the most famous architectural features of Chambord Castle, the beautiful double helix staircase is said to be designed by Leonardo da Vinci too!
So this is what the book says:
During Leonardo da Vinci's last few years, King François I invited him to live in France. When Leonardo da Vinci accepted his invitation, the king was delighted, as he adores him very much and thinks highly of him.
The double helix staircase was a gift to thank King François I , but it was only built after Leonardo da Vinci's death, so it wasn't  built completely according to Leonardo da Vinci's design. Supposedly, the two staircase should supported each other, just like the double helix form of our DNA, but back then no one knew how to build it, so the two staircase ended up how it looks like now. In fact, most of da Vinci's design for the King was left untouched because, again, they are too complicated and no one knew how to build them.

The staircase allows people to climb without being seen by those who go down, so that King François I's mistress won't have to curtsey to the Queen. How funny.

King François I even thought to divert the Loire to the castle, but the project proved too expensive and challenging and was abandoned. Same thing goes to 'The Last Supper', it did not matter to The King that this is a wall painting, he wanted to bring the whole wall to France. Thankfully he also abandoned the idea at last.

As for the reason I chose a picture of castle, hmm let's say that  I've had a lifelong fascination with castles.=)

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My Golden Rule when using Blogger

Well I just learnt of it actually.
Now here's the Golden Rule : Never ever read those post you have written, especially those written long time ago.

I just did that and I was horrified. Seriously, how childish I was back then, gushing over hot guys! I mean, I still do it sometimes, but it is different. And those words I used, I feel like fainting right now, good. Actually, I don't blame myself for my broken English because it is part of me, what I used to be. Besides, though growing up watching all kind of English shows like Magic English,  Barney&Friends and Disney movies, my interest in English only appeared when I was in Form 1, being overpowered by my love for Mandarin before that, and only then did I work hard enough to polish my English. So I have no one to blame except myself for my broken English.

Still, I was tempted by the idea of deleting them since some of them stand no value actually, but something stop me from doing it. The reason was simple enough : because it is part of the history!
Yup, history, of all things. You can't delete something and pretend that it never happened, just like what Japan did, trying to cover up what they had done in the past by saying that those woman (we call it as 慰安妇 in Mandarin) they captured (was forced to be their sex slaves) actually did the 'job'  voluntarily. Stupid, did they really think that people would fall for it?
So, however bad my old post are, I didn't delete them, I just did some correction here and there, when the grammatical mistakes are too much to endure.
It occurs to me that I might be reading this post some years later, sighing, just like what I did just now. But that is not a matter to be worried about right now, right? Besides, only when you has improved that you are able to criticise, so that should be a good thing.

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HL F5 Sc class students' gathering night

this post is based on my (and Joy's too,actually) opinion only, so those whose opinion differ from mine, please don't get angry, I mean no offence, really.

Few months ago
 someone from other class thought of throwing a party, a graduation night or some sort, they ended up announcing about this 'Friendship Gathering', only available for Science classes students.
I don't felt like going at first,  kinda learnt my lesson last time I attended this kind of party, but then my friends are going, and I think we should spend some time together (since I actually never went out with my best friend), so I paid the money to go...

Few days ago
Ah Joy and I were discussing about 'the night', and we were actually not really enthusiastic about it. Hey, both of us can guess what is going to come up during the gathering, there must be some sexy-dance, or things like that, which don't impress us.

Today
Supposedly, the gathering starts at 7pm.
     I showered and read my novella while waiting for my hair to dry off. Time passed without me realising and by the time I looked up,it is already 7pm! So I quickly changed, threw on the dress I picked, a simple but nice dress and dashed downstairs, unadorned and without make-up. All the while I found myself thinking: Hah this just proved how much I care about it.
    Actually, I was thinking of bringing the novel I was reading along too, but I can't find any bag to put it in, and of course I can't just hold it and go inside the ballroom(yes, ballroom, a small one), people would be looking and think: God how geek she is. So I gave up on my perfect plan (yes it would be perfect to be to be able to bring a novel along) and only brought my camera instead.
    My friends were waiting when I arrived and we went in together after Mei Ling arrived, they all looked beautiful enough. Turns out Joy also brings along a novel with her, what a coincidence!

    And so the open ceremony and all other programs begun. I don't want to go into detail because there's nothing really worth talking about, except our class's performance which was really worth praising.
    6 guys and 1 girl from our class were dancing, sketching and singing. Their performance was so awesome and amusing that I was giggling all the way, my hand was shaking so bad that the video I recorded was in a blur (okay not that bad, but still...). It shows that us Sc1 is not all about studying and have the creativity to come up with such witty and hilarious performance.
    The other show which is also great was a slow dance performed by  girls, 3 are ballet dancer, so you get the picture. They just looked so elegant!

    But after that, no more good show. Most of them were dancing, shaking and showing off their body part (this is, at least what we thought anyway), duh. Seriously, others might think that those kind of korean dance is nice, but I think not, especially when some of them were shaking and twisting their butt like there's no tomorrow.

     And so, Joy and I, along with some of our friend went home after 9.30pm. Actually, HALF of the 5Sc1 did. No wonder students from other classes said that Sc1 students are boring, lol. Guess we just don't share the same thought with them.

     Don't get me wrong, I do appreciated those students' hard work, they took quite good care of the details and work hard to make this a perfect night, they even made a ticket for everyone. It is just that this occasion is not for us, different people have different opinion as I said. I still prefer some place quite, without all the noise and confusion. Got a taste of the precious peacefulness when me and Joy sneaked out of the ballroom, hmm how nice. But that cost us something, too, because when we were out, there's photography session, so we missed it, and we were the only two who attended but not in the picture, how sad...

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Exam? It's all about EATING

Exam is about eating. Don't deny it. Say 'yes', agree with me.
I eat while I read, just what normal people in this world would do. I mean, it's exam , and you'll need something. Something that can freshen you up, something that won't make you feel sleepy but energetic, giving you the energy to study (not grabbing the novels or any non-exam related book nearby).
In this case, that magical thing would be food! I cook for myself (because no one in this family is willing to do it for me in such late hour). A late supper will do.
It is not as if I can't find anything to eat, there's lots of food in my house (though they always didn't stay long), thanks to my parents for constantly restoring the food in our house. So emm, you see, I enjoyed eating all the food I can stuff into my mouth, mainly snacks, so much that I didn't care about  getting fat, and that's how I got fatter. End of story.

gyr

不要把一个人的忧郁当成一种美

你承担不起他的忧伤！

gyr

Safe & Sound - Taylor Swift

What can I say? By the second line,her song has already got my tears running.
It's so touching,Taylor sang this song with her heart.Totally great!!
One of her best I can say.

"I remember tears streaming down you face
as I say I'll never let you
when all the shadow almost killed you light
I remember you say don't leave
when all that's dead and gone and pass tonight

Just close your eyes
the sun is going down
you'll be alright
no one can hurt you now
come morning light
you and I'll be safe and sound"

"don't you dare look out the window
darling everything's on fire
the war outside our door keep ragging on
hold on to this lullaby
even when the music's gone"

Not to mention the fact that me and Joy are singing it in school,like,every 5 minutes.There,you know how great it is.

looking forward to The Hunger Games the movie already.Oh please don't make a a sad ending,if not my tears will flow like river and I'll be really embarrassed.

gyr

Pumped up kicks - Foster The People

Fall in love with this indie-rock band.Their songs got me dancing to the beats!
Besides,they got Mark Pontius the drummer,which is totally,freakin' hawttt if you ask me.



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At Langkawi

Caucasian everywhere!!!!!!!!!!!!Turn right turn left and you still see them around you...
It felt like a dream coming true,seriously.

And then I ended up getting confused and can't get use to Taiping because ,well ,it's rare to see them here in this very small town(*sigh).

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